The human condition...

This is a strange phrase...."the human condition"; typically used by philosophers, either to define the deplorable spiritual state of humans or to paint a dark picture of how humans are caught up in their own web of sorrow and suffering

For me the meaning is the state of the collective soul, a soul that is still a fledgling and not allowed to develop , or to be more philosophically correct, to manifest. This is most evident when you stand back or travel to a different country, where you are forced to be the audience, and you see people as a mass, and not as individuals you react with. You immediately get a sense of how the "mass" suffers, you see a dreary depressing reality, people almost like automatons, running through life, with a weird inhuman force or compulsion that makes them go through the motions day in and day out.

Life almost becomes a repetitive script written by an unseen hand that's not quite divine, but not quite human. And that unseen hand is the mind. It programs the body, drives life, and creates a veil of security that in singular rare moments of reflection feels "odd", like chains shackling something more important. But we do not investigate, we are slaves to our own minds, we are lulled into sleep so that the mind can exist at the cost of suppressing the soul.

And that according to me is the human condition, a malady more than a condition, where we pervert our naturally curious minds outwards, to take unholy pleasures in others sufferings; instead of using this nature of discovery to discover who we really are; and what we can be.

Where am I?

And why havent I posted anything in a while?

Mainly 'coz I am now employed, after a year's break and working in a totally new field.

I'm finding it hard to juggle work and the things I really like to do, like bake, blog and work out....
 I am running through the weeks at super fast speed trying to finish off my work, and I did manage to bake a raisin cake, but in general, my time sense has really gone awry.

In order to make my life more organized I now have 3 different calendar diaries, and in effect, if I'm really true to myself, I just bought 'em damn diaries coz they are sleek, and make me look important. It has had no effect on my time management at all......

But that's not the point, the point is that I'm suddenly facing a lot of changes, grappling with some new things in life, and trying to let go of some old ones....I know I'll eventually fall in step with the routine, but right now, I'm loving the uncertainty :)
And I really hope I can post and bake more regularly, because that's what keeps me sane!!

Power...

Embrace the power you are born with....

Power is liberation....Liberation is happiness
Power is instinctive...let it guide...

Power is a positive force...it changes and shifts things

Power is change....Power to change the world

Power is only destructive if you think you own it....

A piece of green...

It's heartening to know that my neighbourhood is so green...

I love how green this park is in the summer...

Update....

I gave up on NaBloPoMo after 21 days.
So Im no longer posting everyday, and I felt guilty about it, but I'm a very temperamental person, and I write mostly when I feel like it. Yup, Im giving lame reasons for giving up, but I just couldnt go through with it. I lack discipline I guess.

Anyway, I'll have some interesting recipes and pictures soon....

Dazed days....

I am currently on a career "break".....which means I spend the day somewhat like this...

- Get up really late
- Log on, read blogs, read mail, search for weird stuff  like cupcake companies, music bands short of vocalists and spanish websites. Mail random people asking for discussions of business opportunities (mostly noone replies...)
- Early early lunch...
- sleep, again....power nap after all the web surfing
- Tune the guitar, get distracted and record karaoke, play the guitar, get distracted by 2 yummy looking recipe books, ogle at the pictures
- Drink tea, go for a really longish swim....plan the rest of the day while in the pool
- Come home, promptly forget the plan, watch NCIS, CSI and Las Vegas episode re runs
- Dinner
- Chat with friends, apply to totally inappropriate jobs, register to weird mystery shopping and free lancing sites
- Sleep peacefully over a day well spent doing nothing at all....

Sounds like a busy day eh? Nothing's achieved out of all the jumping around and distractions....and that makes it extra satisfying!!

Everything's that going wrong....

...in 2011...

- The Tsunami in Japan...catastrophes anywhere are never fun....

- Pawar being linked with every single scandal ever, but still gadding about free

- The metros in bombay(yeah, BOMBAY....what you gotta say to that eh?) that are never ever going to be completed, because all the money's vanished in the blackhole. It's a strange phenomenon....I call it the "unending pocket of greed"

- Pawar....again, just so that everyone knows what I feel about him....he's got 9 lives me thinks, and he uses each to reduce our lives to half...

- Pani Puri scandals....I mean really????? Just coz you have a hose, doesnt mean you water everything in sight....(I just managed to gross myself out with my own comment)

- MNS finding a reason to rampage, be it for panipuri or taxis or whatever

Frankly I dont think we really need a 2012, we will manage to kill each other sooner I think.....

random

I gazed upon the mighty Earth, she looked a little blue
what ails u sweet child; I asked of her; is it that human flu?

That is when she hacked and coughed, her body racked with pain....
Dear father it doesnt go away...and you're the one to blame...
who told you to shine just so bright and nurture the evil human brain?

That is when I smiled and said, just some centuries more before you and I will be one...
There isnt a race yet born, that will survive in the Sun

Addicted

Don't want to wake up in the morning,I'm not prepared to face the day
My nerves are still frazzled by the stress of yesterday

No time for breakfast or tea, or healthy calories
I should stay at home, but I need the salary

That's when I see it(like every other day)
I tell myself I wont do it again,
That I'm addicted and it would hurt me in the end

my feet stop on their own, my nerves set up a clamor
you know what can sooth us babe, dont you want to feel better?

I argue for a second, but I know what I'm gonna do
I can't resist that pharmacy, it virtually glows

My mind chides me all along,but I walk up anyway,
I shove down the guilt and whisper "Ek cadbury dena please"
(English translation : A cadbury chocolate please)

Faith

I went a little crazy then, lost a bit of faith
Every time I had my chance
I threw it all away

And now I stand at an untouched place
The wind my body sways

All I have is this moment
The rest fades with the day

Random post

In the elevator -

he said - "Hope to meet you again"

she said - "when hell freezes over"

At the concert-

he said - "Serendipity"

she said - "dumb luck"

On the phone -

he said - "longing"

she said - "lust"

At the cafe -

he said - "affection"

she said - "hallucination"

On the beach -

he said - "love"

she said - "love you back!"

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