The destiny of friendships.....

It's funny...I was scrolling through my phone list, and there are these thousands(who am I kidding)... 100s of people in it, that were at one time so important to me, that I would sleep in front of a bus or a train for them.
And now as I scroll through, they are just memories from the past, of times shared, moments stolen from destiny. The people I rely on now, are not those from the faraway past, but those from my recent now.

It's strange how we believe in the eternal moment, how we believe that time wont move on, and neither will we.
But that is hope, hope of a future where we are still happily comfortably enclosed in our equations, relations and friendships. Hope that even if things change, there will be that one friend you can call on and share your life with...hope that makes me skip through a whole list of numbers to reach those 3-4 that are happy to share my life.....

Where am I?

And why havent I posted anything in a while?

Mainly 'coz I am now employed, after a year's break and working in a totally new field.

I'm finding it hard to juggle work and the things I really like to do, like bake, blog and work out....
 I am running through the weeks at super fast speed trying to finish off my work, and I did manage to bake a raisin cake, but in general, my time sense has really gone awry.

In order to make my life more organized I now have 3 different calendar diaries, and in effect, if I'm really true to myself, I just bought 'em damn diaries coz they are sleek, and make me look important. It has had no effect on my time management at all......

But that's not the point, the point is that I'm suddenly facing a lot of changes, grappling with some new things in life, and trying to let go of some old ones....I know I'll eventually fall in step with the routine, but right now, I'm loving the uncertainty :)
And I really hope I can post and bake more regularly, because that's what keeps me sane!!

It's one of those days...

I'm a survivor.
But I dont feel it today. Today is my off day from optimism.

Some more delays and excuses. Some more communication gaps, some more indications of disappointment to come. Sudden rush of feeling that says "I cant do this anymore, maybe I should just quit and drift through life like a hobo"

I feel an unexplicable sense of doom. I cant always be happy and cheerful. I have to feel super miserable sometimes to counter normally happy. That sometime is now. Where that little peaceful ashram in Orissa seems like an extremely beckoning place.

I need a huge piece of Cake, or a huge bar of chocolate. I was planning to bake one today....but I couldn't because of some creepy crawly in the kitchen...*sigh*, sometimes Im such a girl...

Anyhoo, today I'm resting my sword and shield ....tomorrow is another day....

Last minute woes

I am not an organised person. I work really well when the most important part is left till 5 minutes before it's deadline...
Which is why you are now reading this well written post that has nothing in it.....

So I'll leave you with a thought...

Have you ever tried smiling when the world seems to be crashing down on you?
It might not reduce your troubles, but its the best ammo to stand up, square your shoulders and say "Bring it on baby*"

*Yeah, yeah...but I have a family friendly blog.....