The human condition...

This is a strange phrase...."the human condition"; typically used by philosophers, either to define the deplorable spiritual state of humans or to paint a dark picture of how humans are caught up in their own web of sorrow and suffering

For me the meaning is the state of the collective soul, a soul that is still a fledgling and not allowed to develop , or to be more philosophically correct, to manifest. This is most evident when you stand back or travel to a different country, where you are forced to be the audience, and you see people as a mass, and not as individuals you react with. You immediately get a sense of how the "mass" suffers, you see a dreary depressing reality, people almost like automatons, running through life, with a weird inhuman force or compulsion that makes them go through the motions day in and day out.

Life almost becomes a repetitive script written by an unseen hand that's not quite divine, but not quite human. And that unseen hand is the mind. It programs the body, drives life, and creates a veil of security that in singular rare moments of reflection feels "odd", like chains shackling something more important. But we do not investigate, we are slaves to our own minds, we are lulled into sleep so that the mind can exist at the cost of suppressing the soul.

And that according to me is the human condition, a malady more than a condition, where we pervert our naturally curious minds outwards, to take unholy pleasures in others sufferings; instead of using this nature of discovery to discover who we really are; and what we can be.

Where am I?

And why havent I posted anything in a while?

Mainly 'coz I am now employed, after a year's break and working in a totally new field.

I'm finding it hard to juggle work and the things I really like to do, like bake, blog and work out....
 I am running through the weeks at super fast speed trying to finish off my work, and I did manage to bake a raisin cake, but in general, my time sense has really gone awry.

In order to make my life more organized I now have 3 different calendar diaries, and in effect, if I'm really true to myself, I just bought 'em damn diaries coz they are sleek, and make me look important. It has had no effect on my time management at all......

But that's not the point, the point is that I'm suddenly facing a lot of changes, grappling with some new things in life, and trying to let go of some old ones....I know I'll eventually fall in step with the routine, but right now, I'm loving the uncertainty :)
And I really hope I can post and bake more regularly, because that's what keeps me sane!!

In one moment

Eternity; that moment before the storm;
Of anticipation, dread, and change

That single hesitation before the arrow leaves the bow
and that last thought that flickers in the eye, before it hits the heart

a Lifetime; That moment before the earth shatters into half;
of peace and acceptance and fate

That one in drawn breath before the world sets on fire
and that last hope of life, before it turns to dust

An entire life lived in one single moment.

of the multiple futures I had....

....I chose this....

I could have become
- A swimmer
- A vocalist
- An author
- A karate pro
- A bored housewife

Maybe, there is a destiny, and all your choices lead you to the same destination....